Brendan called me last night newly in from Florida. We talked for a bit and the decided to get out into the night. I'd just been completely sad all day and by the time he called I was ready to do something.This unexpected depression has been dominating my spring break. So I met him at Barnes and Noble and we talked about what a crappy bookstore it is. It has such an air of insincerity with artificial lights pouring down in vast amounts of brightness. It's wretched really. I can't stand it sometimes. We left, got some green tea and drove around for a bit with infusements of air outside spinning.

I don't know. I really like Brendan. He's so easy to sit with and just do whatever. It's an enjoyable simplicity of mutual appreciation for life.. or something deep like that. I'm feeling so entirely inarticulate tonight. I asked him if he was a romantic person. He didn't exactly seem to know. I'm guessing it's because he's never really thought about it and I'm probably the first person to ask something vague like that. He burned me some CDs.... the guys like my musical soulmate. haha. I have a lot of things going on inside right now...feelings that are supposed to be irrefutable now refuting each other. Contradicting, cancelling, fucking everthing up. For once I don't feel like endeavoring to capture it in words. And so, I go to make some jasmine tea...